joel

It just hasn't felt the same in the same way it used to, no

I suppose that that's just something I've just gotta get used to now

Close my eyes and do whatever I imagine that you'd do, but I

I'm not sure, I'm not sure

 

Because everybody's happy and with everybody laughing

I can't help feeling like I abandoned you

I wish I could've gone instead of you

It sounds a bit macabre because it's true

'Cause there's a certain pain in everything I do

 

Someone told me, "Let the pain go"

Almost punched him in his face, though

If I let go of the pain, I might cease to know your name

It's been so damn long

I can't picture your face, I've been so damn wrong

In so many ways

I've been holding on

That will never change, it's all for you

 

Because everybody's happy and with everybody laughing

I can't help feeling like I abandoned you

I wish I could've gone instead of you

It sounds a bit macabre, because it's true

'Cause there's a certain pain in everything I do

 

But I don't like to talk about it

Everyone tip-toes around it

Feels like they're tip-toeing 'round you

All I ever really know is

All I ever really know is

It's all for you, you, you, you